I know most of the time i’m not smart enough to differentiate what is truth and fake, as a result it seem that most ppl like to bluff me somehow. I start by trusting most ppl ard me but as time past, people around me always bluff or joke about stuff which i no longer know what to trust. It turns out that whatever they say i will think twice. Last time i have a ex who also take it as granted and always bluff me ( not in the bad way) but after sometime i will always doubt his word n cfm with him agaiN and again. Situation happen again n again which also cause me to start losing trust to ppl ard me . Like the recent incident, i trust ?* frenz to inform me whether my frenz are safe after they have settle down n he even promise to send to one of our frenz’s house. ENd up all the promise and trust were smash all on the ground. I didnt slp the whole day as i was taking care of a drunk person n worry abt my gals. Next, one of the parent called to ask abt their daughter at 4 to 5 plus am. and i try to help by calling up her daughter’s frenz. there again this lady promise to get back to me so that i can answer to the parent but i recieve nothing even after i call back to her. Once again Promise is rubbish and trust is nothing. A minor case like bluffing me that she is gg to the toilet but end up leaving with others make me felt very upset. However i try not to take it to heart altot  i actually  make an effort to delicate her favourite songs while waiting for her to be back. Maybe i’m jus someone who do not  need to be trusted or keep promise cause it seem that most people are doing that way to me. Feel like a loser always. During studies, i will be so happy whenever i am able to help others with my limited ability cause that’s what a loser can at least do. Even the most trusted person also play with my trust like a toy, it was so often that i could only trust him to a certain extend. Frankly i dun even care his personal assets and nobody even n bother to care or  asked about it but he choose to bluff. “The real world has lots of bad ppl” i always dun believe that cause ppl ard me are great and nice ppl. But i think is time to think twice cause i’m not even confidence on my own perception and believe anymore.

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